As I sat in front of my computer ready to write my first “proper” blog, overwhelm flooded my body. I asked myself, Where is the right place to start? And my mind went blank. I could start anywhere, I thought. So many topics to write about. But then self-doubt paid me a visit. What if I can’t write a “proper” blog? After all, English is my second language. I took my fingers off the keyboard and paused, recognising this familiar feeling of overwhelm. My eyes landed on my Confident Woman Freedom prototype deck of cards. I shuffled them and picked this card, “What if I smile even more?” I smiled, bringing my attention to the way it felt on my face with my cheeks slightly bulging out, gently closing my eyes. I took a deep breath, which made me feel lighter. Now I brought my attention to the air going through my nose, down into my belly and back out again. I can’t believe I still use the old story that English is not my first language to hold me back. Eva, it’s been 28 years. I shook my head and laughed. That is the story I tell to keep myself safe. I placed my fingers back onto the keyboard as I said out loud, But there’s nothing to keep myself safe from. It’s just new and unknown. And like anything, I will be better at it as I keep going. I looked at the computer screen and smiled. That’s it, I thought. This is exactly what I will write about. The gift I received in the moment I smiled.
How did I write this so fast? I paused realising I’d written half of my “proper” blog. By becoming aware of my fear about the task in front of me. Then clearing the chatter in my mind, I took myself out of my head and into the feelings of the now, through the awareness of my smile and breath.
When I provided the space for the comforting truth to come through, it did. And with it, overwhelm melted away. I realised it’s much easier to teach this wonderfully empowering content, as I am living it, instead of trying to research “real” scenarios, supporting documentation and facts on the internet. So this will be my “proper” blog writing style. Yay!
There is a part of me that can’t believe I get to share these delightful reminders with you through the Confident Woman Freedom cards and their guide book. My heart is filled with so much joy and gratitude at the thought of it. Thank you for taking the time to read my first “proper” blog. I wish you all the very best of everything life has to offer.
Have a fabulous day!
My first “proper” blog
